tuesday

so i just finished my thesis paper. it is pretty and it is done. i clipped it into the binder and now i'm going to just look at it for a little while. it is probably one of the only papers i've ever written in college that meant something to me. and i am really proud of it and i'm going to make everyone read it and tell me i'm the best. (p.s. i'm too tired for modesty right now thank you).

now i only have like 5 papers to go! oh maaaannnn. tomorrow i have finals from noon to 6:30pm and afterwards i am going to lay in my bed and watch reality television and probably drool. and i am genuinely looking forward to it. then i start work on friday and i don't have a day off until next wednesday. god only knows when i am going to move. before work one morning is my best guess? maybe this time next week my life will begin to take some kind of shape again. maybe i can start thinking about happy things then, like painting and landscaping (that's not a joke).

but it's too soon to imagine such things. i can only barely see the light at the end of that tunnel now...